Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Approach for the search for my soulmate

Continuing from my previous post about soulmates, I believe in soulmates but havent come across mine yet. And I have also realised that I might have met her, but maybe I pretended to be someone else, or not even that, I might not have been me at the moment (people behave differently with differnt people, thats relative behaviour I guess).

Anyways, continuing my search, I feel that I have to improve my comfort level with members of the opposite gender, so that even if I come across my soulmate tommorow, I shouldnt come across as a mumbling bumbling fool. Also as accepted universally, nobody can understand a woman. It just comes with practice I think; manners, etiquettes, chivalry, these things come from within, but also take some time to develop.

After having read Richard Bach's "A Bridge Across Forever", I think the correct approach should be to experiment, get into relationships but never be permanently scarred from one. Every relationship teaches you a lot, be it patience or understanding of a woman. And I am still on the lookout fro my soulmate.

Such experimentation might be called unethical, but its not as I myself am one of the subjects in it. Its not like I am playing around with 2 human beings, I am one of them and as equally involved as the other. If anything backfires, it will affect me also.

Also being in a relationship overrules all the side-effects. Just imagine, I have so much fun and peace being in a relationship with a girl whom I dont even love, then how much better would it be with my soulmate? Of course, not everyone gets to have this much fun, it also includes a lot more. But if a relationship seems like its dragging, its always better to end it then instead of trying to out some life into it. (This is not in the case with my soulmate, I am assuming that with her everything will be just perfect).

So current situation - am carrying on my experiment and will carry on the learning process. If I meet my soulmate during this, well and good, else I might as well change my approach. But right now, I think this is worth a try. What say??

posted by Raoul @ 4:44 AM 0 comments

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Soulmate

I have always believed in finding a soulmate, living happily ever after with her. I dreamed that I would love her so much, maybe even strangulate her in my love. She would complete me as I would her. I dreamed we would be together, blissfully unaware of everyone around us, spending hours in each others company, and loving each other all the more. I dreamed about sleeping with her in my arms all night, her presence comforting the animal in me, her smell soothing me after a day of frustrations, her kiss making me happy to be alive this day; her breath on my face, her soft hair falling over me, her delicate hands in my hands, her breasts on my chest, her thighs touching mine. I cannot believe that I could exist without her, its like she will be the meaning of my existence here.

Well, wishful thinking! I donot want to shatter all your dreams and mine too, but truth is that soulmates donot exist. Of course, there are lots of couples who seem so nice together, but none of them really complement each other.


I really wish I would believe my own reasoning, but I cant. Like a friend said once, "I luv it when I dont make sense" :). I still believe in my soulmate and will keep trying to find her. Somewhere, someplace, am sure shes there waiting for me. After all, the heart is the irrational romantic in me.

posted by Raoul @ 12:12 AM 1 comments